NAME

 we decided on the name of our "film" 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

From my known knowledge, a lot of people struggling with depression, or any suicidal thoughts write letters to family and friends as a final goodbye of sorts. the premise of the "film" would be that the story would be narrated from the perspective of the note.. if that makes sense. so it'd be kind of a past-tense thing. like a mix of 13 reasons why and perks of being a wallflower. the story is told from the journal showing the characters' struggle. 

ok.

relax. 

I've made myself a plan 

my main stressor right now is my continuous school work so I've made it a goal that every day at 6:30pm i do any and all work that needs to be done. 

I know that probably seemed like the obvious thing to do but I get sidetracked easily and I take accountability for that. I usually figure that I have it in the bag and am totally fine until I'm not. so. 

I say that here so that i have some reason to be held to it. 

My research and goals for this week in AICE Media: 

- Logo 

- Instagram 

- Teaser with the logo

- Actors 

- Rewatch Perks of being a wallflower 

now I have no idea when I can accomplish any of this but i will make it work 

im stressed

 I'm so stressed. for NUMEROUS reasons 

first a foremost on my stress list...STN 

student television network. STN. A national competition held in Long Beach California. A competition I've attended for the last 3 years of my high school career IS NEXT WEEK. and the only difference between this year and the previous years is that I'M IN CHARGE OF PLANNING IT. with a friend of mine of course. but its just been taking up a lot of my time so I fall behind on school work and its just been very stressful so I want it to be over. 

I'll admit I've been falling behind on my research and the work for this project, I'm trying, I am, I just have so much on my plate. I'm a senior so college stuff is rolling in and I'm still trying to apply to places plus I'm working to pay my car bills which I've barely had the time to do so I'm just falling behind on everything 😂

I don't mean to vent but I feel that I should have an explanation of sorts

Like this is my calendar for the next few weeks and I don't even know when I'd have time to properly film anything. UGHHHHHHHH im so done😂

Group time

 so today we met with people in different groups as a form of constructive criticism but also a way to get feedback and different perspectives. I met with Miguel, Abby, Yoav, Maria, Morgan, and Ale. 

When we met and started talking, a common issue we all had was our time, we all had so much to do and such little time to do it. 

March is a busy month for us all it seems. 

I started talking first and i feel i got very little feedback on my idea which i didn't mind but Luisa got more feedback but it was mostly about our social media page. 

Then Miguel was next. He was doing a short film on attachment issues through contemporary dance. I loved this concept and helped out dishing out ideas like finding a location since he didn't know where to film and I recommended that he speak to Jim from BECON (which is a place where Sfl students can go check out free equipment for a few days)  or a house to film in. 

Yoav was also doing a film promo but his main issue was his scheduling, he was leaving to a competition next week and didn't know when he would have the time to film given the following week was spring break. 

Abby is working with Riley on a film promo, and I thought the concept was really cool. Their promos would be based on a film where there's photographic time travel. An issue they were having was posting on their social media. She was saying they didn't have many ideas so I recommended a grid post (it takes up a lot of posts and adds suspense) 

Maria was doing the documentary option and so far the idea was thoroughly planned out even with the logo and everything. The only thing i recommended was making questions more personal as to get better responses from the interviewee. 

Morgan was also doing film promo. The only issues she had were scheduling issues to which i recommended making a schedule to keep herself on track. 

and lastly, Ale is doing a short film on the different perspectives of death. Using different colors to represent each aspect. She expressed that she would use a blue color for a happier tone and a yellow color for a more somber tone to which i was confused and i expressed a concern to which we realized that it was different pastel or dirty versions of the colors. The blue would be almost a cool angelic tone and the yellow was more of a dirty orangey yellow.

While talking about social media we brainstormed a few ideas and here they are:

Insta Ideas

banner post 

bloopers 

BTS 

Teaser

Highlights 

meet the characters 

fit check/GRWM

starting now.

 Now that we have an idea of what type of portfolio we're gonna do we can now start planning.

we're gearing more towards teenage angst drama sort of taking my original short film idea but just doing more with it. 

Luisa and I are going to watch Perks of Being a Wallflower so as a form of research we have an idea of how to gear towards this. 

I've read the Book but never seen the movie and I think that a similar concept would be cool. 

The book showed the internal struggles of Charlie and how his environment as a freshman in high school influenced him as a person. I want to take that concept of internal struggle and almost internal monologue and use that in our movie trailer if possible. 

updatesssssssss

 so Luisa and i decided to do the movie trailer option !!

still coming up with concepts!

I know we are slightly behind but i have a good feeling we'll catch up

LEIGHT BOLB

While chatting it up in class Luisa and I came up with the idea of our trailer

The "movie" would start off seemingly good and upbeat, life is great you know? Then some trauma happens like an accident or a fall and our main character would be heavily influenced by this and get survivor's guilt and although they have their friends and they seem to be getting better the "movie" would end with the MC taking their own life. 

We have to get into more detail about it and get our shot list in specifics but the idea is there ! and I think its a pretty cool idea 

There are not many films where they kill off their MC, usually, they show how they overcome their struggles and that there's a light at the end of the tunnel but given our target audience for this "film," we want to kind of show how it's not always okay. In a nice, not-pusing suicide way.....

We want to show how even though there are ways out not everyone sees it. We want to sort of bring awareness to mental health and how a lot of people do not take it seriously which can lead to higher suicide rates.

Well, Most movies do kill off their main character sometimes but it's not really of their own volition. Like for example in Saltburn (SPOILERRRSSSS) Felix was seen as a main character, although he was a supporting lead, Oliver killed him rather than you know, doing it themselves??? 

This is very hard to explain without it sounding terrible. 

My point is that we have an idea 😅

SCRAP IT

 yeah no, male decided to work alone

no hard feels

but that just leaves me n Luisa and we have no idea what to do 

we only know that we DO NOT want to do music video

i would like to do something creative like a short film but I'm not super filmy, I would be OK with doing a documentary, but i just finished one so i don't know if its something i wanna do. 

back to the drawing board 

we dont have ideas

 Male had some ideas that she had scripted out but then she decided to scrap it last minute.

I had an idea to do a coming-of-age idea but more on the angsty genuine teen route where we could make it like.....I don't know, I had a cool concept but it was shot down so we won't do that one 

She also had an idea to do a "Soul" based concept but she wanted part of it to be animated and given our time restrictions also with upcoming events in the next few months I don't think it's a good idea to do something like that especially given that none of us know how to animate and it takes a lot of time and commitment. We have a few friends she said we could ask but I do not think they'd be that committed nor willing to work on this project given that they get nothing from it and they have their own lives to handle. I just don't think they'll be as reliable as she thinks. 

I'm willing to do a concept on Soul and something touching but we don't have the time or expenses to be playing the risk factor. 

We've just hit a crossroads, male has big ideas but a lot of them have to be achievable for our level. We are high schoolers and as much as we can do great things we are normally very busy. and these things require a lot of time and attention. Now I'm not saying we won't give this project our all but we leave to California in the middle of this project and on top of that we have at least 3 more trips during this next period as well. I'm not trying to party poop but given our situations we have to have achievable goals.

WOOOO *buffering*

I kind of hate research.

I said it. Someone had to. 

excuse my french but it sucks butt 

We don't know what exactly we're doing but we know it will be a short film  !

Exciting right. 

While I've had a few experiences with creating a short film or being involved with creating one. Writing is NOT my strong suit.

I have a very hard time putting my thoughts into words so I like to stick to editing and the heavy-duty work like camera work and whatnot.

I have two other people working with me one of which is a writer, Maria, or what we like to call her "male" with an accent on the E so it's not male but malE. You know? 

The other is Luisa who's crazy with storytelling so it ike works perfectlyyyyyyy

AHHHHHHHH

Well....it's the time of year again when I devote 10 weeks of my life to a singular project...yayyyY!!!

I'm kind of excited for the project itself but I know these posts will bite my butt off. My group decided to go the short film route, mostly to avoid the music video choice, but also because we are just very creative people and want to test the limitations of our work ethic. So right now we are just developing our idea. I kind of want to go a teenage angst route, but writing is not my strong suit, so it'll take a bit to figure it out. 

I just want to hold a camera and edit! (I luv those two parts)